Finally been able to write after all these while.
Sorry if it had been dead and all that, now its alive again.
Currently, I am writing to you at about 1.19am WIB (Indonesia time.)
And things have been going fine lately,
met new friends, Michelle, Stefanie, Nadine, Monica, Nadya, and the 4 blokes which I dont want to mention names.
Oh ya, and the teachers were a bit sot-sot, but thats okay.
I have also learnt that my old friends, some of them I wouldnt even call them friends anymore.
whats the point? they are just going to ignore me and keep some things behind my back.
maybe, they are talking bad about me. oh well, lifes like that.
if youre thinking why my thinking has been changed till like that, thats because
I was a bit stressed out. WAY STRESSED OUT.
I had alot of things to juggle, parents, school life, nanny to my brother, maid.
Basically endless responsibilities are given to me.
Well, some people might say that they are suppose to discipline you, but think about this yourself.
You are washing some dishes yourself at night,while your whole family goes to bed and sleep every night. How does that feel?
And everything I do wrong, I also got scolded for it.
Like for example, because I got the cough and it was from my brother, and I wanted to scold him, he scold me back because I pass him the disease. See who is the stupid one tell me?
"Andrea, you could have done this, andrea you could have done that...."
And when I dont reply to my mum, she would go like:
"Since, you never talk to me. I would never talk to you ever again."
Firstly, since when have you listened something important from me just once? Probably never.
Do you know, my maths teacher got super mad at us one time, he gave us alot of homework. Since yesterday I have gotten back ache, head ache, slight fever and diarrhea, all in one day. Isn't it amazing?
YOURE STRESSING ME OUT!
I'm so sorry for I have sinned writing about not honoring my parents, but I feel this anger inside me.
Now, today was worser than ever.
My mum obviously did not remember to ANYTHING that I was saying like, "Mum! I have homework to do and its due tomorrow!"
Guesss what that homework it was, ART.
I did not do anything. Not the prep work, not the rationale, and even the final work itself.
Its like bull poo.
But my mum went on to wait for my Dad and went he came they would talk and talk and talk and chatted and bargained for the prices to be lowered for a dinning table.
I mean, come on!
And they told me: oh which is more important, food or artzooka.
I say artzooka, they took me to eat food.
And they told me again, this time: which is more important, food or furniture.
I said food cause I was hungry, but they went to look for furniture, so I went one level below to see the chocolate fountain.
As a result of this crap, I spent 9 hours 16 minutes in the mal, and just reached home.
There I realised Dad didnt cut the board yet, because he doesnt know which to cut.
Well, i cant blame him.
so now I should really get back to work.
will sleep for four hours, and wake up at 5.
if i work fast enough.
:|
P.S: I dreamt of mrs leong again. FUNNY HAIR.